My side of the story.

You could have chosen a better time to break my heart. Seriously? Ngayon kung kelan malapit na matapos ang taon? 2 months nalang oh, anniversary na natin. You could not even wait until makauwi ako para mapagusapan natin ng personal. Napakabilis mong sumuko. It makes me wonder kung lalaki ka nga ba talaga.


A few days ago, out of the blue, I asked kung magiging friends kaya tayo pag nag-break tayo? And you said "Idk babe. I don't want to think about us breaking up" and nung lumabo na lahat, you said "maybe kelangan lang natin ng time" and so time was given pero nung dumating na ulit sa usapan kung pano natin aayusin yung relasyon natin, ang katangi-tanging solusyon lang na naisip mo is "if we can't save the relationship, can we at least save our friendship?" Seriously?! You don't want to think about us breaking up but when it's time to think about what to do to save our relationship, suddenly breaking up is the only solution? Bullshit.


Pasabi-sabi ka pa ng "I love you so much. I don't want to lose you" pero kung bitawan mo ko, ganun-ganun na lang. Aba gago ka pala eh.


I guess the reason why I'm so angry because I could have given you everything, but you would not let me. I can love you with all that I am, but you would not do the same. Yun naman talaga ang problema sa'ting mga tao eh. Ang hilig natin mag-expect. Kapag inexpect mo na gagawin ng isang tao lahat ng kaya mong gawin para sa kanya? Masasaktan ka lang. Walang ganun. Totoo nga ang sinasabi nila. Walang forever.

This time last year, everything was so different. I was head over heels in love over a guy who was playing "hot and cold" so hard, it pissed off Katy Perry. There was also another guy who would do almost anything to win my heart. I ended up with guy number 2 but when he succeeded in winning my heart, he changed. Suddenly, I felt insignificant. As if winning my heart was the only goal, and keeping it was no longer part of the plan. To be fair, it was not his intention to make me feel unloved but to be honest, he did not know what to do to make me feel the opposite. What happened? Why did anything had to change? How can you keep something that's already gone? These questions are haunting me and hopefully before this year ends, I'll have all the answers.